Still Hoping For Some Fun

Although life is still fulfilling, it just feels like we need something different.

Secret message on there.

May isn't my favorite month.  I so dislike Mother's Day.  This one wasn't too awful.  Just more usual.  My son gave me a card that said, in part, that he was sorry for all the dumb stuff he did as a kid and that I didn't know the half of it.  I told him that pretty much all Moms know that there's tons of stuff they don't know their kids do / have done.  And we really don't want to know.  But what I didn't say, was that Moms are pretty perceptive, and while they don't always know the details of their offsprings' behavior, they generally know when shenanigans are going on.  I think I've always known (at least in a subtle way) when my kids were making choices I wouldn't agree with or approve of. We can usually tell when they are shutting out The Spirit that keeps them safe.  While I know it's necessary, it's a hard thing to observe and not be able to fix.  People cause themselves so much unneeded pain.

Love that Hawthorne tree!!!

Anyway, The Husband did a fun thing.  I received this jar full of gift cards to various eateries.  And it was filled with teensy mini-Jr.mints.  Which I love.  And then I did a selfish thing.  I saved all the mints out of the jar in a container on the shelf so I wouldn't have to share. And replaced them in the jar with glass marbles.   67 years old and I'm still unwilling to share certain things.  That's pretty sad.

I managed to stifle my anxiety and my feelings about a specific thing and it went well enough.  I didn't end up feeling worse and I mostly kept my thoughts to myself which always is a good thing to help keep the peace.  I so very much dislike obligatory gifts, visits, cards.  Again - as a mother I can tell when things are done purely out of duty.

We went out with some friends on Saturday evening and had a grand time.  There again - restaurant gift cards are so great!!  Though I really dislike those payment stations on the tables at Olive Garden.

The gardens are going great.  The sprinklers are ready to go as soon as the seeds are fully sprouted.  We - so far - haven't lost any of the tomatoes.  Or the geraniums or alyssum.  They all seem happy to be where they are.  And our Hawthorne tree?  It's in full and lovely bloom.  One of my favorite trees.  It helps that it's happy to make up for one of our tricolor beeches, I think it won't last - it's definitely not thriving and is a concern.

Cute little goslings.

Monday morning The Husband went with me on my walk.  And while we didn't see the muskrat (I've seen him twice lately) we did see a first for me:  baby geese.  We usually see a fair amount of ducklings this time of year but I can't recall ever seeing goslings before.  They were on the other side of the creek so the picture has been cropped over and over.  But they sure were cute.

Yep, know this person.

And I visited the eye dr. several times.  The glaucoma drops caused me a bit of misery.  So we tried some different ones = a different set of problems.  More medication (and more $$$ flying out the window).  I guess the next step is cataract / stent surgery. We'll see how things progress.  I don't mind saying I'm a tad anxious about the entire prospect.  Perhaps I'll feel better after the initial evaluation (and I hope my primary care dr. is quick with the referral so we don't have insurance issues).

Today I'm grateful for a husband who treats me as though I'm the best thing to ever happen to him.  I'm grateful for the return of the hummingbirds.  For hope that my lesson for R.S. will come together and hope that I'll manage to perfect the piece I'm playing for a sister when she sings in Sacrament meeting this coming Sunday.  (She's been sick, hopefully she's well enough for Sunday.)  I'm thankful for insurance and for some good sunshine.