Tuesday

I have had such anxiety and pain over Mother's Day over the years.  It's been a learning process - to not have any hopes or expectations.  It's better.  Still not great, but better.  Church is always hard.  Not my favorite to listen to the gushing accolades concerning women in the ward who are less than charitable in their behavior to others.  (Bragging has always been hard for me to stomach.) Sunday after church I had two sweet sisters at my door bringing me the treat that I passed up when I passed on Relief Society.  So kind.

I've resisted Podcasts.  Anyone can create a podcast and represent themselves as an expert on anything.  It's an open market rife with personal opinions and yes, flawed information.  A friend of mine encouraged me to download an app that she checks on daily.  It has a scripture for the day, a game, stuff for kids, stuff for teens and a whole row of podcasts (links) that you can sort through and choose.  I chose one the other day, really enjoy the guy but not the gal (who replaced her busy mother).  Gave it a chance and gave up.  Then figured I'd listen to the one ("Follow Him") done by Hank Smith and John Bytheway.  There are two parts, I'm 3/4 of the way through the first one and have been enjoying it.  

Pretty iris almost open.

The hard part is finding a complete hour that I'm comfortable devoting to so I read my scriptures for Come Follow Me then spend as much time as I dare on the podcast.  This week, Smith and Bytheway have a guest on - Danny Ricks - a professor at BYU-I.  Today I actually jotted down a couple thoughts.  John Bytheway was talking about welcoming people to church where everyone  is - or should be welcome - he said visitors or newcomers should be "gang tackled by kindness".  What would that really feel like?  I would love to know.  Then later Danny Ricks said "nothing can't be fixed with a little time and a little Jesus".  He explained that our Savior welcomes those who have troubles and woes and sins, wants to spend some time with all (everyone of us is a sinner) and together things can be improved or fixed. 

I needed to hear those words today.  Here's a link to the podcast just because:  Follow Him 

It's gray and gloomy and dark-ish today.  I hope it rains.  Our outing today was to get a new sprinkler head.  $1.32.   Cost us probably $2 in gas getting to the place but so grateful to have a place to get a new one with a minimum of fuss and bother.  Now I can open the bathroom window at night when the sprinklers are going and not have a lake on the bathroom floor. (Yep, that happened - the open window and the little lake.)

Grateful today again and again for repentance. I probably do it more than anyone.  You'd think it'd stick and I wouldn't have to repeat it over and over.