It's Been Quite A Week or So

Manti Temple

Last Saturday we drove to Manti for our granddaughter and her fiance to receive their endowments.  4 hour roundtrip drive (lots of waiting) as well as a meal made for a long (though nice) day.  Too hot for early June. 

The Husband's CPAP machine is finally here at home.  Last night we discovered that it hadn't been registered properly so he didn't get credit for the first two nights.  (It's a rent-to own if you meet their stringent requirements.  It'll be an interesting year.) Last night he did pretty well, though he doesn't remember when he took it off, it has to be used a minimum of 4 hours per night.  Learning curve for sure.

The granddaughter's wedding was nice.  We were glad to have our daughter and son-in-law with us.  My stress level this week has been off-the-charts, and it has affected The Husband as well.  He's been a bit out of sorts.  Again - we are in steep learning curves for so much of life.  But, the hubbub is over for now, we won't see any of that family again for quite some time;  maybe I'll calm down a bit. The flowers are always lovely at the temples but I particularly loved these dahlias.

So far this morning I've   a) been for a walk - saw the cute deer that was across the street from me    b) done two loads of sheets - washed, dried, folded and closeted    c) put clean sheets on our bed   d)  the second load of towels is in the dryer    e)  cleaned three bathrooms   f) drawn up the weekly schedule for posting on the fridge   g) vacuumed the entire house (except the basement)   h) gone through 72 emails from the last couple days - and the clock is just now striking noon.  I've only practicing the hymns for tomorrow, figuring out food for dinner and some deep breathing left to do.

I should be - and truly am - grateful for food, and plenty of it, to have.  It's just that I've been figuring out what to fix for meals for over half a decade and I'm weary.

I'm so grateful today that we were actually invited to the endowments and the wedding.  I'm so grateful for ibuprofen (still have that wicked headache), grateful for units that cool the air in our house, for appliances to help with the chores and for a couple books to read if/when I get a minute.  Grateful for medication that hopefully will help lessen the issues that accompany the shingles that are currently afflicting our daughter. More than anything though, I'm grateful for repentance - though I wish I didn't need to use it so, so, so often - and the hope for forgiveness for all that I've managed to muck up.  I worry that Heavenly Father will give up and me and find me beyond redemption.