...and hoping today is better than yesterday. Not that yesterday was awful. It wasn't at all. Just frustrating / disappointing.
I'm a "one and done" kind of person. You should be able to buy things once and never have them wear out, need fixing, need replacing, go out of style, quit working - including all of the things (clothes, appliances, cars, houses, people). Yes, totally ludicrous and impossible. I realize that. I still find my innate self thinking that way.
Yesterday morning began with me folding the bed sheets. Discovering the bottom sheet had holes worn clear through, in a couple spots. Seriously? How did I not know that? And I just spent what felt like a year's salary on a set to replace the previous ones that wore out. Later on, discovered not one but several holes in my underwear. Sheesh. (Thankfully those are easily replaced and not too awfully expensive.)
The final discouragement? After dinner was flossing my teeth, as usual before brushing them. My one tooth felt funny. Sure enough - half of it fell out of my mouth. It's a crown. Has had a crack for several years but seemed to be holding up fine. Until it wasn't. Fortunately the dentist can fit me in this afternoon (at 2:30 which The Husband always finds funny about going to the dentist at "tooth-hurty") for which I'm grateful. Half the remaining tooth is jagged and rough and I feel like the pain is just waiting to erupt. Breakfast was challenging. Lunch will likely be soup. Visit to the dentist will be welcome though I'm pretty certain our poor excuse for dental insurance will once again fail us. Last week it was The Husband. This week me. I shudder to think what next week will bring.
But the good news was our sprinkler friend/helper came out first thing yesterday and winterized the sprinkler system. It was like 31 degrees this morning when we left for our walk. Nice to know we're assembling a small entourage of reliable people to follow (help) us from task to task as we try to maintain our home, we want to stay here as long as we are able - or as long as the funds hold out. It's a toss up as to which will occur first.
Off this afternoon (depending on how I feel) to the ward chorister's house to practice. She's following through on the Bishop's constant request to include the youth more in every aspect of our ward. She's enlisted a couple teenage sisters to lead two of the hymns this Sunday. Since I'm subbing on the organ we both thought it would be helpful to practice together. Fingers crossed for both the tooth help and that I'll manage the organ again. My hands are painful.
Looking for gratitude already. Though I truly try to have a grateful heart always. Sometimes I just have to be more focused on finding specific gratitude things. So very grateful to be able to pick up the phone and get in to see the dentist. Grateful for a warm sweatshirt to put on. We're still adjusting to the new furnaces and it feels cold to me. But then lately I'm always cold. Was looking for another sweatshirt so I have plenty to choose from and was struck by the fact that I have lots of sweaters and sweatshirts to wear - a luxury for sure. I'm grateful for warm socks and good shoes. Mostly today I'm grateful for the chance to try again to be better. I might be sort of good. Striving (always) for better and best; want my best self to be the best disciple of the Savior.
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