Thinking

One of my latest self-proclaimed dictums:  Life is too short to wear uncomfortable clothes.  And if there's a time when you can't get out of wearing uncomfortable clothes, switch them out for comfort as soon as possible.  Stretch fabric is our friend.

My tooth crown?  Has to be remade.  Wasn't done properly.  At least I don't have to pay more.

Lunch yesterday with our friends.  So grateful for them and this new weekly lunch engagement.  

Grateful for our sofa.  Been sleeping there quite a bit the last few nights.  Last night was the worst - this back pain and spasms are a bit unbearable.  Finally managed to get into a decent position on the sofa last night and lasted for nearly five hours of uninterrupted sleep. That's a win for me.  Looking forward to the time (and hope it's soon - yes, I always want health things (and financial things) fixed immediately.  Thus, I'm often frustrated because life does not work that way.) when my back won't feel so on fire all the time.  Actually had a few minutes this morning without any pain.  Oh, my. 💖

Received this from a friend.

Mentally fussing about Christmas gifts.  I always stress so over this when in actuality I doubt anyone really cares. We've often seen our gifts immediately donated or given away or even tossed.  I dislike spending money on stuff that is of so little value to the recipient, especially when I've tried so hard to do it well.  Some people have a knack for giving good gifts.  Not me, I guess. And at this point in life, our kids (and even the grandchildren) are all so self sufficient,  and doing well (yay!) that they don't really need anything.  I wish we could figure out a way to reduce the need to do so much for Christmas.  A factor is that we've been overly generous over the years, spending way more than we should. In at least one instance I think we were trying to compensate for not being allowed to have a relationship / much interaction.  Those days are over, I think.  A sad reality of life is that you cannot force someone to care for you.  I have finally come to terms with the fact that Christmas is just another day for us, we'll be here quietly spending the day with each other and  be grateful that we can have another day together.

Had a call yesterday from one of the finance guys.  He's so kind.  Our money is so little compared to their usual minimum accounts, but they don't seem to mind.  They've done fine, what little we have has grown, we are comfortable turning it over to them to manage.  He actually told me yesterday to have a little fun, that we've earned it, that this is a good time in our lives to pamper ourselves and that we won't go broke if we do.  Nice to hear.

I missed a meeting last night. Sister Soares was the guest speaker.  I thought perhaps it would be interesting and was invited to go.  But I just couldn't.  The night meetings are always so challenging for me.  And my back was so bad last night I ended up a bit miserable, would have been difficult for me to sit there, let alone focus on her uplifting message.  Apparently her husband,  Ulisses Soares, the apostle, was there with her for support. How lovely.  I am definitely sad that I missed the meeting.  

It's cloudy today.  I wish it would rain a bit.  Don't know if the mower is coming or not and if he does what success he'll have considering the amount of pine needles that cover the grass.  The fallen leaves he could probably just mow over.  A good day to stay at home with a book, but since sitting (and standing and reclining) is so hard on my back I think we might try to go run an errand.  Had an unexpected, but nice, quick visit from our kids the other evening. She said our son would be happy to help with stuff we need around here.  They are busy, we rarely interact with them.  She said just to ask.  I don't ask for help.  Not if it can be avoided, we've always been independent and want to be as much that way for as long as we can.  Thankfully we have enough funds to pay for the mower and the sprinkler guy and the window washer (only once a year for them, too expensive) and whatever we have to do around here.  The Husband has been such a blessing all these years with his ability to do whatever needed doing.  How grateful I am for him.