Lots of Thoughts

Was asked today how my holiday had been and I fear I was just blunt and frank.  I said it was awful.  I'm sure I could have been more tactful.  I guess I'm not that.

Lovely walk.

Between all the sickness, InstaCare (and then dr.) visits, multiple antibiotics, strained (and very painful - no minimizing here - he's hurting pretty bad) back, nonstop coughing and then the letdown of seeing no one over Christmas or the New Year (I'm still nonplussed at the cavalier response "ok, see you next year" without any follow up interest in how we're doing) and frustration - well, yup, it could have been a whole lot better.

Sure, coulda been a whole lot worse.   I've been working really hard lately to de-emphasize the negative and find a more positive spin on pretty much everything.  But right now that's a tough one for me.

Went this morning for the blood work for our physicals tomorrow.  Then, because I was having a mental pity party, I picked up chocolate frosted chocolate donuts at the grocery.  (Half of them went in the freezer.  The one I ate (to the tune of 400+ calories) went straight to my guilt center. Hard to enjoy something when it makes you feel guilty.

So pretty.

On the bright side:  I managed to go for a short afternoon walk on Saturday (Jan 1.) I was gone less than an hour but came home with a whole day's comfort for my brain/heart center.  It was so stunningly beautiful and so very few people were out and about.  Balm for my soul.  

And:  one of my orchids is blooming.  I saw a bud on it last week when I was watering it, but thought it was quite a way from blooming.  It's so pretty. 

Today's gratitude:  for a couple different recliners we can choose from when we need to sleep in the night and the bed isn't working.  I so wish we had furniture - like a couch.  I'm getting a tad impatient waiting for it.  Also gratitude that I'm finished with the latest antibiotic.  I'm not fond of the side effects (can't be very far from a bathroom) but it has meant that my head and ears haven't hurt.  I don't know if I've ever experienced such bad headache or earaches.  I'm grateful that I managed to get to the library on Friday.  I think I'm going to be here at home for a while - it's nice to have something to read.  And gratitude and hope for the repair to be complete when the guy comes on Thursday to take a look at the fridge.  I never realized how much we use the water and ice from the fridge until it was unavailable.  (And yes, I'm fully aware of what a luxury it is to have ice and water at the touch of a button.) Hoping it'll be able to be repaired, not anxious to replace it.