I kind of got out of the habit of writing here. I so lost my enthusiasm, even though that wasn't what I wanted. So I often mean to write and then forget. Really, we're not that busy. But the day does get away from me.
Managed to get a referral for my arm. Last night was so bad I ended up on the couch trying to get into a comfortable enough position that I could sleep. Wasn't very successful. Several times through the night the pain woke me from sleep - was going to say slumber but that word evokes peaceful and restful and my night was anything but that. Was going to call this morning and ask if they couldn't move my appointment up a bit. But never managed to do that. The appointment is a week from tomorrow. And I'm pretty sure that dr. visit won't tell me as much as I want to know. Hope I can last that long. Learning to do a lot of things left-handed is mostly just plain awkward, uncomfortable and requires w-a-y too much brainpower.
The other day we saw the couple who lived in the circle directly behind our previous house. She was funny. Said she recognized us right off and that we never change. Ha! Haven't seen either of them for 22 years. Everyone changes in 22 years. Still not sure if that was a compliment or one of those lies-that-are-meant-to-be-kind. Perhaps a bit of both?
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And speaking of gifts: We felt like we over-planned when we bought stuff for the neighbors/friends. I even bought a couple extra. But every time we walk past the front door there's another "Merry Christmas" item sitting on the porch. We've completed (and delivered) our first round of gifts for others, mostly depleted the extras and now am scrambling to figure out what to do for the latest one. (I really goofed on delivering. Was feeling frustrated and a bit overwhelmed - all the gifts for Christmas (a lot of the neighbor ones feel like obligations which don't generally feel good) do that to me. We were running around delivering them in the blustery super-cold wind and I got mixed up. Pushed one into a mailbox (locked and no way to retrieve it) and instantly knew I'd put the wrong one in there. Had to phone Kent and fess up that I'm an idiot and would he please come unlock his mailbox so I could get the wrong one out and give him the right one. He was so cute, said: you're not an idiot, you're just old. 😀) I don't ever feel like we have many friends and am always so surprised that someone thinks enough of us to drop something off. Most days of the year we're pretty invisible. But it's still nice.
Sunday will be our Sacrament meeting Christmas program. Am helping out a little ensemble on the piano - there are 4 violinists and 1 flautist. We were supposed to just do prelude but a youth that committed to doing a piano solo backed out so now we're also doing a number in the meeting. Practice will be one session immediately before the prelude. That leaves me a bit nervous, but I'm only doing what I was asked, not in charge. I'll count on the season and people's focus on the Savior to carry us through.
We have an extra long day on Saturday at the Bishop's storehouse. It was initially supposed to be closed that day, but they found out that some people don't get their orders until friday nights and they didn't want people to go without food over Christmas so we said, sure, we'll be there. Then off to see our son and grandson for a minute. It'll be one of those days where we'll get home and I'll walk in, kick off the shoes, heave a huge sigh and say, wow, it's good to be home - can I get my jammies on?
So grateful today that people I love are so free with their forgiveness to me. I have so many faults. I want to be kind always, but am not as successful at that as I'd like to be. It's strange to me how easily I'm annoyed these days. Don't know if it's the season, or just plain stress or if I'm just plain old and ornery. Still, I'm grateful I can say I'm sorry and really mean it and feel immediate hugs and warmth from those I've offended. So grateful.
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