I'm Trying To Be Better

And today I'm trying to be brief/quick.  

I made it through the day yesterday without tears.  It felt good.  Today will be another effort, though I've already come close.  I'm weary of crying.  Don't know why I'm doing so much of it lately.  A social worker said the other day I might be feeling some depression.  Probably.

We went to a movie yesterday:  Escape From Germany.  Totally an LDS movie and obviously not the big budget kind from the major studios.  Still, I was captivated and so glad we saw it.

Came home and The Husband got busy on the mailbox.  Our old one was just decrepit.  Time to replace.  I've been mentally crossing my fingers that the new one (even though I ordered the exact same one) was going to work.  I'm such a worry-wart. But it looks great!

This morning we were up and out early - up to the Draper Temple for the 7 a.m. session.  Ran into a couple ward members, which was nice. It is a good time to get to the temple but put me way behind for the day.  Came home, ate, walked, showered and here I sit waiting for my hair to dry so I can get going on lunch, etc.  This was the first time up at the temple in a few weeks.  The grounds are awash in tulips, pansies, daffodils and probably other flowers.  Had to take a couple pictures.  I can only imagine how pretty they will all look once the sun hits the blooms and they smile for everyone. 

On our walk I had to take this picture of a lilac bush.  One of my very favorite flowers.  They're getting ready to bloom. 

And The Husband is getting anxious for the garden, wants to plant and get going.  I love that he enjoys that though I think I'm getting too strong in my push to reduce the size this year.  It's a big-ish garden that provides w-a-y more produce than we can possibly use.  So many of the people around us are already gardeners so we don't really have people to give the extra to.  And it is a lot of work.  We're getting a bit aged for too much of the physicality of a garden, especially since The Husband is already determined to do all the mowing/trimming/edging this year.  I worry about him out in the heat.

Today's gratitude:  for flowers! And sunshine that isn't burning hot.  And for the ability to turn off the furnaces and reduce our bill.  And most of all, I'm grateful for repentance.