Too Much

I'm an admitted homebody.  I also am more comfortable with some sense of order, absence of upsets of any kind and relish peace.   Sounds like heaven, right?

So, I've been tense at home a lot.  The place I remain to avoid stress.  I finally realized the other night that it's the actual physical surroundings that are causing a bit of anxiety.

The front door is already a couple weeks behind schedule.  And likely to remain unfinished for another couple weeks.  It's unsettling to constantly see the bubble wrap on the door, to open the door and have it practically whoosh inward because it's so light compared to the normal weight of the three heavy layers of glass.  

And the family room is bothersome for me.  Things rarely turn out like we expect.  We had no idea the furniture would sell in a fingersnap and that once we decided what to get that it would take 8 months.  Sigh....

I've had to take a few weeks off of yoga and my knees have surely missed it.  As has every other part of my body.  I'm leaving in a few minutes for class and am nervous about going back.  I'll be so very gentle, but am still apprehensive.  

I'm playing for another special musical number at church on Sunday and the hymns (my turn on the organ) were also changed at the last minute.  I only get one practice with the singer tomorrow and she's a professional.  More intimidation and stress.

Everything just seems hard right now.  Combine the stuff going on all at once here in the house (with no real end close enough in sight to give me encouragement) with the terribly worrisome drought / fires / bad air we're breathing / the dangvirus / the uncertainty over travel and it all just seems too much all at once.  

So, one thing at a time.  The air quality seems a teensy bit improved this morning - even according to all three of the monitoring sites we use. I managed to get in a shortish walk this morning.  And in about an hour and a half I'm hoping to feel better about yoga. Once I can go and know that it'll be fine, I'll feel better.

The Husband just brought in another huge batch of tomatoes.  I'm running out of people to give them to. But so grateful we have enough to share.  And am grateful for our neighbor calling out to us as we walked by this morning extending a sincere invitation to come get some peaches while she's out of town this next 5 days.  She also enjoys sharing her abundance.  So grateful.