What shall I buy? |
Today, the card arrived. Hastening in to my computer I pulled up Amazon and sure enough....the bag is no longer available. Oh, I could get it in aqua or pink for the spring. Just wasn't what I had in mind. Sigh...
And here I am whining about a blessing. What a huge luxury to have $200 to spend on whatever my heart desires (within the constraints of the retail offerings). And I'm grousing a bit because what my heart desired is not longer possible.
Read an obituary this morning for a woman I knew in my childhood. She was 103 when she left this earth. She was a widow for 57 years. I remember that she somewhat intimidated me, but that she was kind.
Been thinking about funerals. Remarked to a friend yesterday I don't want a funeral. She reminded me gently that funerals are for the survivors. Stubborn as I am, I stuck to my guns. I do not want a funeral. Just, please, gather at the gravesite, dedicate it with a prayer as is our religious custom, think a kind thought or two and move on. Carry me in your hearts, remember my attributes (if there are any) and forgive me my myriad faults. Know that I loved Heavenly Father and the Savior, that I absolutely adored The Husband and tried to be a worthy soul. Not that I plan an exit any time soon, just making my wishes known and hope they'll be respected.
Today's gratitude: for my knowledge of the Plan. It helps me navigate this life, making my way through the frustrations, joys and my own shortcomings. It gives me hope.
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