Almost crocus in a nearby yard. |
View from our back gate Sat. 8:30 a.m. |
I feel like I lost a week. No energy (nor desire) to be part of the human condition. Did nothing but lay around. (Or is that lie around? I'll never ever get that one right.) I was ornery, irritable and downright miserable. And no fun to be around.
Exacerbating it all was my underlying unhappiness about being booted from primary. My head understands all the whys-and-wherefores, my heart - not so much. I know I'll be fine, I'm just grumpy about it.
Each weekend finds me reading a newspaper column - I'm not sure exactly how to describe what her column is about, but I always find something of value in what she writes. This last one was about buying a fixer-upper-of-a-house and fulfilling its potential. I loved this accompanying picture.
It got me to thinking about potential. And if I'm selling my potential short. Am I capable of more/better? Of course I am. As are we all. Am I worth the effort required to fulfill my potential? Absolutely. I'm grateful there are those who care enough to look past my sometimes less than gracious exterior to find some beauty in my underlying structure. And for the Atonement of our Savior that paid the ultimate price for all my shortcomings.
I'm grateful today for those who said kind things to me about my time (this last time around) in Primary. For a kind soul who trekked all the way across the chapel to share some chatter and giggles with me. I'm grateful for little ones in Primary who unabashedly delight in singing at the top of their lungs (I will miss them). I'm grateful for unselfishness. For water and for sunshine. And for medicine to clear up infections. And for someone that never ceases to convey to me that I am his treasure (I'll do my best to live up to that potential).